Saturday, December 26, 2009
TASKETE!!! ( HELP!!!) Noob... I thought Sundays are for resting... and i gotta go for tuition on... CHINESE?! naze watashi wa ???( why me ???) This sucks, anyway... I am having a terribly hard time... I didnt go anywhere or I am not going anywhere this entire holiday... and it is the same for every year... When my mom said we could go for a holiday to japan, I was so happy... but the plan was called off and she booked a chalet at sentosa... ==dont even know if we can go (theres a need for a lucky draw to get in) I appreciate it but I just feel like my soul has just been pulled out of my body... (oh all the drama =3=) I am so pethetic... I feel like crying it all out to someone I know who will never abandon me... but there is no one who ever promised me that and who ever I knew already abandoned me in their heart... though I know some who hasnt... I just cant bear to cry infront of everyone... I have been enduring the loneliness for years... putting on a fake smile... but why cant I endure it now? I have been asking myself this question ever since the holiday started... I dont want anything anymore... I am just dreaming of a fantasy... W8... WTFKING HELL AM I SAYING HERE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! anyway... I know alot of ppl out there suffering... and I know how fortunate I am... I just dont want to be lonely... ever... again like in the past... Okay now i just sound like some noobie storyteller... But that is just what i feel in my heart XD I will probably leave this blog dead for some time... Please mind my stress ^^
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